Getting ready to begin the next chapter of my life! I FINALLY get to go to “real college”!!! I spent my freshman year locked down on a military base and my sophomore year at home so even though I am a junior I have never had the opportunity to experience campus life at a university. So as you can imagine I am really really excited!!
Even with all of my excitement I can’t help but worry that I will lose myself again. Living for Christ as a 20 year old college student is about as against the grain as it gets. I can’t help but to look back on what my life was like before Christ. TERRIBLE. I was a hot flaming mess of brokenness. I was caught up in a terrible downward spiral that neither myself or my family knew how to get me out of. I realized that something was really really wrong when I found myself in a jail cell and didn’t even care that I was there. Shortly after that, everything that was left in my life crumbled and I was left on my butt with no one to blame but myself.
I share all this to say that I fear falling back into that life. I NEVER want to be there again. For me, sharing my story keeps me from allowing the enemy to put shame and self hate into my soul. I am REDEEMED and He has set me FREE!!!
I also want to encourage anyone who thinks that they are too far gone to come back to Jesus. Exactly a year from the day I was arrested I was on a mission trip in Nicaragua doing more than I ever thought possible to show God’s love.
God displays his strength in our weaknesses. He can AND will use the most terrible of circumstances in ways that bring glory to His kingdom and bring joy to you! I pray that my rant ( this post was more for my sanity than anything else) blesses you and reminds you how awesome our God is.
Lift, Pray, Love 